Friday, January 09, 2009

Just crushed.

I am suffering from debilitating disappointment. Two things slipped from my grasp today:

Oh. Frack. I love you so, so much, my patent blue destiny.

Fluevogs. Fluevogs on sale. I first saw them on about December 27, and fell in love. They were available in blue, wine and black. Obviously the blue is meant for me. But cooler heads prevailed, and I decided I couldn't really afford them - half price or no half price. But I kept coming back....they drew me, every day, just to look at them. I realised today that resistance was futile, and clicked "Buy Now". I had some trouble deciding on a size, and in the time it took me to stand on a ruler, find my credit card, and type in my brother's zip code (this style is only available to US addresses), the blue and the wine both sold out.

While still reeling from that blow, I got an email from a woman with whom I've been negotiating the purchase of my first spinning wheel. Things were going swimmingly until this evening, when she wrote to call the whole thing off.

Buh-bye.


I'm awfully depressed about these two events.

At the same time, I can't help but feel a little chagrined about how cast down I am because I didn't get to spend three hundred dollars on shoes and a spinning wheel. And this in a world where thousands starve to death every day. My friend Tabatha, who often has a voice of disconcerting and uncomfortable truth, would say "These are the problems of prosperity".

Now I'm sighing a heavy sigh, and thinking:

I should sign up to sponsor a World Vision child....or I could buy a sheep for a village somewhere, with that money....maybe just donate it....Hang on: would the black be just as nice as the blue?


Oh my GOSH what is the matter with me.

21 comments:

lizbon said...

Tell me what size you wear and I will scope out the Fluevog store to see if they have any on sale.

knititch said...

maybe it is retail therapy that is wrong with you. it happens to the best of us. oh a spinning wheel. that is on my wish list to, but after taking a spinning course at some point. last time i had a go i miserably failed.

Jo said...

I don't wear heels, but those are gorgeous shoes!

Valerie said...

I sense there's a freebie coming your way soon. My mom always said, "Good things come to those who wait." And it seems to be true. (Or maybe she was just setting me up to look for it?)

Besides, you couldn't treadle that wheel in those heels anyway!

Bethro said...

Ack! I send you empathy. Both of those are beautiful and you should have them.

Off topic, I saw you are reading KNitting Classic Style. I am currently working on the bicycle socks,.

Ames said...

If you only had that wheel, you could spin enough yarn to make afghans for a whole village of Afghans.

carlarey said...

Oooh, nothing hurts like being denied by the retail gods. And nothing makes you feel quite as shallow and worthless.

kate said...

The shoes scare me, but I do know you would look stunning in them.

I am sorry to hear about the wheel.

Brenda said...

Well I truly believe that all things happen for a purpose, but always SO disappointing when it first happens and you don't know what on earth that purpose is.

That being said, one of my coworkers told me about someone else on Quadra, upstairs from Fun Knits who has an Ashford Traditional for sale. I can find out more about that one next week if you want.

rolla-cameron said...

Oh that's to bad about the wheel. Was it the contact that I gave you? If so then it is the same person that Brenda is speaking of. Have you checked craigslist, or kijiji? I found my wheel on craigslist. And those shoes... well they are love, I couldn't ever wear them but hey nothing says they wouldn't be nice to just have right. ;)

mel said...

Your "first" spinning wheel? Oh I fear you will fall hard Dear!

There are moments when I feel like I've broken my consumer-based patterns. And then there are moments when I order a whole new set of needles. Because I hate the ones I have. But now I have two sets and feel like a gluttonous pig.

Brenda said...

No, not the same person I was speaking of, someone completely different, from what my work friend told me.

dropstitchknitter said...

Ouch! So sorry - and disappointment is real, no matter what you dealing with :)

I just might have a lead on a wheel - I have one I'm thinking of putting up for sale. I have to figure out price, how to ship it etc. Let me know if your interested.

Dave Hingsburger said...

As someone who has spent a lifetime in Birks I have almost lost the appreciation for a fine pair of shoes - but those a pretty - and I hear black is the new blue.

Night Owl said...

Sorry for the disappointment Shan. *hugs* (I've always found hugs to be the best cure for depression.)
Though disappointment is very real in its time, it does seem to leave as quickly as it comes, especially with material items. And I've no doubt that you will find another spinning wheel.
Have you heard Schubert's song "Gretchen am Spinnrade"?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w25VEWphwYQ&feature=related
(The piano accompaniment is supposed to be the spinning wheel.)
Hope you feel better soon.

Night Owl said...

P.S. I like your label for it - made me smile. :)
P.P.S. Aren't those shoes a bit too similar to patent leather slippers? :)

Penny said...

Oh Shan, those are lovely shoes. Not sure I'd wear them, but to look at...

Shan said...

"Patent leather slippers": Night Owl wins the award for cleverest comment of all time.

Emily said...

Oooh, I LOVE Fluevogs. I'm sorry those lovelies slipped through your fingers. I just got my first pair (of Rooibos boots) and it was an epic journey involving them getting mis-delivered to a woman with my name in Seattle, tracked down and re-delivered to me. But now that I have 'em, I love 'em.

Tabatha said...

Those are very pretty shoes and would show off your ankles quite beautifully.

Annalea said...

I once read a quote that said (very nearly):

"The real measure of character is what we think of when we don't have to be thinking about anything."

Something to think about, eh?

Tabatha has it straight. I often wonder about the value of the way I spend my time, fussing about with schtuff, when so much of the world just doesn't need it (as they're functioning so very well without it). We all long for beauty, and to feel happy . . . the question is, how do we satisfy those needs? And what does it cost others to do so in the way we currently prefer?