Wednesday, March 12, 2008

How has your day been so far?

0105 - The kids finally stop coughing

0130 - I look at the clock and think "I'll just finish this row before I go to bed."

0135 - Row finished, I turn off Buffy Season 5 and go to bed

0152 - Emily, clutching a WebKinz, comes into bed with Mr HSB and me

0210 - I tell Emily to please lie still and go to sleep

0220 - I tell her to please lie still AGAIN. She complains of a headache. Mr HSBoots takes his pillow and alarm clock and goes somewhere else.

0245 - Emily is holding her ear and crying "I want to go to the doctor."

0308 - We check into the ER

0320 - DOCTOR, TO ME: That ear's red - here's a 'script.
TO EMILY: You were such a good girl! Do you want an early birthday present? I have a wind-up dancing frog for you.

0345 - back at home, back in bed.

0420 - I beg Emily to please please lie still and go to sleep

0447 - Emily goes to sleep

0502 - I look at the clock for the last time

0715 - Charlotte wakes me up. I tell her she can go on the computer for a bit. I try to go back to sleep.

0722 - Charlotte starts to cry because the mouse won't move. Em wakes up. I consider suicide.

0930 - I phone my sister instead

0945 - the kids start fighting

0955 - the kids are crying

1015 - I hang up the phone

1020 - CHARLOTTE, SOBBING: I feel like you're a bad mother. I feel like I don't want to live with you any more. I feel like you make everything my fault.

1025 - EMILY, SOBBING: You don't love me mummy and I'm moving away and I'm never going to live with you again or play tea party with you again. Mummy pick me up I need a snuggle.

1045 - I decide to post to let you all know you may never hear from me again. Because it's all just too much for me.

15 comments:

Tabatha said...

Oh Shannon! XOXOXOXOXO
What a horrible morning! I LOVE you and think you are GREAT!

Gena said...

Oh how crappy! Hang in there. I'm pretty sure I "ran away" from home 3 times when I was a child, assured my parents didn't love me. I came back an hour or so later because I was bored. Oh, and I was wrong, my parents do love me.

Tomorrow is another day!

Annalea said...

The hardest thing in life for me is when my kids treat me as kids will. I still haven't been able to figure out how to love them completely, as I want to, and yet not let them cut me clean through when they turn their frustrations or anger on me.

One thing I do know though, is that if I'm tired, it's game over. Just do a lot of deep breathing today, and see if you can get a little more sleep tonight. Earaches are the one thing that I haven't yet been able to figure out how to remedy quickly at home. And it's so hard to see my kids hurting. Thankfully, we don't usually get many of them around here.

Best of luck . . .

Bethro said...

That sounds AWFUL. I wish you a six pack of beer and plenty of Buffy time in the near future.

Without kids, its hard to relate. I'm sure when I do I will think back on this and slap myself in the head and yell "ah, now I get." However, I want to point out that at the very least, Charlotte has her "I" statements down. Has she been reading Dr. Phil?

Dave Hingsburger said...

WRITE FICTION, IN FICTION YOU ARE GOD, CHILDREN ARE NICE AND IF NOT YOU CAN HAVE THEM MURDERED BY SOME CRAZED PARSON LIVING UNDER HIS MOTHER'S EVIL INFLUENCE. AT THE END, YOU'LL HAVE DONE WHAT YOU WISHED, NOT GO TO JAIL AND BY THEN YOUR KIDS WILL BE LOVEABLE AGAIN.

DON'T THANK ME FOR THIS ADVICE, JUST SEND MONEY.

kate said...

Dave, you rock.

Sorry Shannon. Really that's all I can say.

Kris said...

Oh no. Hopefully Em is feeling better soon. My guess is that it is because they are overtired. Usually that is when existential angst is at its highest around here!

Naps look like a reallyreallyreally good option

Cynthia said...

You got in and out of the ER in under an hour? That's amazing!

I hope your day got better.

lizbon said...

I think mummies should be allowed to run away from home, too.

kate said...

OK, Lizbon you rock too.

Olga said...

Bummer. As moms, we so know what your going through and we are on your side! Hang in there, this too shall pass.

Jo said...

Don't you hate it when they think they are old enough to say things like that to you? ((hugs)) Mine is sick right now, too - I hope they all get better soon.

Stace' said...

Keep your game face on, and remember...this too shall pass.

Dave Hingsburger said...

Knock Knock

Hello Hello

Are you alive?

Are the kids alive?

Reassure us all.

Karen S said...

Oh, my! You poor soul! I really hope that they will grow up to love and adore their mother who gave them so much (and reward her with love and attention and always listen to her and her advice)...
Good luck with the next couple of days