for you

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which part is the part that knows
that feels, is aware,
inhabits the muddy shell and shows the rest
that I am here, for now among the shoddy living
making my way and scurrying back when I find
I’ve been down this avenue before
I remember, it goes nowhere

within is the greater part I suppose
I hope
it transcends I think or is meant to although
the flesh that binds me here
has its own power, own devices

and cleverly cunning with a smirk
this corrupt vessel of earth has craftily hidden
and in secret and darkness
lovingly shaped through five long years
a monstrous pearl.

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